I WOKE UP!
Faith Journey day 30!
We have arrived ladies and the final destination is “I WOKE UP”
I really wanted to have this last day be a video for you but...... you know me and IG, we go through it, lol.
The photo says it all,
ONE DAY I WOKE UP and I had to get really HONEST with myself, with my Creator, with where I wanted to go in life, with what HE wanted me to do with my life. Prior to 2019, I WASN’T LIVING. I was being everything to everyone else at the expense of myself, hoping, believing, praying it would get better ONE DAY.
Until I realized, the only way my life was going to change was if and when I changed. God was calling. I wasn’t listening. The first part of me making a change was for me to SIT STILL and LISTEN. I had to ask, Lord what do you want me to do? Am I where I’m supposed to be? See, He’s always speaking. We’re just usually not listening.
He reminded me of His promise. He reminded me of His command (which I did not obey in the beginning) and this is the KEY RIGHT HERE.... the answer (YOUR ANSWER) usually comes in the way you least expect it. In my case, the Lord had been whispering in my ear that it was time to “answer the call“ I was confused because me walking in obedience in my marriage was impossible. I knew that, which was why I kept my faith, my spirituality, my God, in my “back pocket”. (Close enough to me but not allowed to completely lead me)
Well, IMPOSSIBLE means nothing to God so he kept knocking at the door of my heart. While He was knocking, my marriage began to spiral out of control faster than an avalanche rushing down the mountain side. Needless to say, the Lord had my attention. The question was no longer should I stay or should I go. It became how do I let go, shifting to, Lord help me to not love him anymore. See, sometimes God will allow everything around us to COMPLETELY fall apart because if it doesn’t, we won’t move because we’re too comfortable.
The Lord showed me I would never arrive at the promise staying in space I occupied. The only way I was able to see my answer was in the spiraling down of my marriage. It was beyond broken and had been for a very long time. I held it together and made it appear to be “working” as long as I played the role of someone who had no voice, no say so, no goals, no dreams and definitely no true connection to God and ABSOLUTELY no purpose. I WOKE UP! I refused to miss God this time as I had before. I had to make a choice. I could stay in a broken marriage that was slowly sucking the life out of me leaving me with a lack of confidence, doubting myself, and walking around with a heavy spirit knowing I wasn’t truly connected to God, OR I could let go of the things that no longer served me and live a life worthy of His calling. The choice was mine and IT WILL ALWAYS BE YOURS.
Your Creator will never force you into anything. He will allow you to live in a complete mess and wait patiently for your surrender. As we come to the final day of this journey, my prayer is that you realize that nine times out of ten, WE ARE NOT WAITING ON GOD, GOD IS WAITING ON US. The only way we are going to see radical change in our lives is if and when we decide to make that change. God will not do it for us. He has given us the power to create our lives the way we want them to be.
CREATE MY SISTER, CREATE!!!! I celebrate you for taking time out of your busy schedule to go on this journey with me. (Well nvm we are in quarantine, lol.) But really, you could have done so many other things to occupy your time.
Before you go, please share with me, one thing you’re going to do FOR YOU, that is going to change to trajectory of your life. I wish you well 💕
If you did not have the opportunity to follow this entire faith journey, you can do so on IG @3pministry_ (IGtv) and also on Facebook - 3pministry/staceynelson most of the journey was on video so you can really capture the moment of what’s being said.
Be blessed my friends and create your life!